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There are two approaches to treat my writings-first one, expecting consistency in thoughts and themes is bound to fail in its efforts through and through–the second, much like life itself can be treated as a testament of varying moods and themes. For example, last year, around this time-I hated Satan whereas I am in love with him this time around. My views on things change very often and they often reflect movement of stars as I find myself very susceptible and permeable to energies around me. Defining ‘me’ could be difficult and disengaging but it’s enough to say that there is no consistent personality as amalgamation of many energies in an equilibrium to environment operates as identities in various persons. There are people who know that they do nothing and there are people who think they do everything and among those two extremes there are most who think they do some things and some other things just happen. I don’t know much about the game of life but I seem to side with existential thinkers who advocate that meaning is created in life by us–that there is no absolute meaning.

Waiting to find Truth and then communicating it with others is futile because Truth can’t be expressed in words and can’t be found in words. The purpose behind writing is not to be absolutely sure about things you write about even if you write nonfiction.  Continue reading “Masquerade”


Waking Life

Richard Linklater’s waking life is a visual depiction of a seeker of reality who finally merges into it and disappears. The film starts with a young kid playing a game in which his destiny is suggested to be dreaming.  The kid moves out of the game and starts floating in the air as if in a lucid dream. Then he finds himself growing up and talking to various philosophers, experts, people at random and friends. He finds himself in many strange situations but after every one of them he finds that he was merely dreaming. Sometimes he is one of the characters, sometimes  merely a witness, sometimes an onlooker and sometimes merely watching a TV show—all in a dream. Towards the end he finds himself talking to a person in a bar playing Foosball–who tells him about a novel by Philip K. Dick. The novel tells about falsity of time and space and reality which dawned upon the author all of a sudden. The kid asks about the method to wake up and the person tells him to simply wake up! He wakes up on his bed and finds himself dreaming. He then again discovers many things like time, space, quantum mechanics, language, psychology, biology, society and life. Finally he finds out that he has been meeting same people mostly…and those people didn’t have any substantial reality other than shadowy personas projected by his memories, fears, desires, habits, likes and dislikes. He finally reaches to his home where his destiny was revealed to be the dream. Realizing that there was no destiny whatsoever he starts flying once again to disappear and merge into reality. Into his own Self.

Inland Empire And Rabbits!

David Lynch’s Inland Empire is a film with many metaphors. The rabbits are people with personalities busy in their private dreams. Their incoherent dialogues represent Karma of humanity and gods appearing occasionally represent supra-mental forces thriving on fear and desire. The audience which keeps laughing on performance of rabbits is witnessing consciousness. The girl who is watching the TV show all the time is also witnessing consciousness. The actress meets the girl in the room in the end of the film–which is self rediscovering itself after forgetfulness. The husband of the actress who is the magician represents mind with its many tricks–which makes her forget herself–therefore she traverses through many lives and cultures searching for her own self. The longest running radio show is a suggestion to tell that entire thing takes place inside space-time–while witnessing consciousness is beyond space-time and beyond mind(magician.) The witnessing consciousness in form of the girls represents various experiences across various times and places. The woman who appears in the beginning tells a tale–she stands for the negative aspect of mind which creates evil, Karma and destiny where there is none. Rabbits are mysterious and they represent unconscious mind–because Karma gets created via incoherent words, memories and suggestions. The search for mysterious and beautiful is search for dreams, intrigue and reality–but in the end it ends where it starts–in the Self–the girl finds herself. Reality is neither one nor many–it’s. The blurring between reality and film as well as past, present and future becoming one suggest that the witnessing consciousness(girl) traverses beyond space and time–across multiverses. The reality can’t be expressed in words much less via a film but I feel this film is a great attempt to paint a picture of Self rediscovering itself as beyond space-time, beyond religions and business–beyond taboos and relations and beyond dreams, paranoia and trauma. Kudos to David Lynch and team!

Heaven and Hell!

Christ consciousness helps you understand and transcend suffering in your universe. We suffer because we desire. Even when you desire to create a better universe you imagine that suffering is there–therefore before really knowing yourself you start helping others. Repeated help is no help. It’s like becoming a clutch for others. The true help is making others realize themselves and this is possible only when you are established in peace and harmony.

Harmony and peace are heaven. Inertia and restlessness are hell. We suffer for others in our universe because fear and desire are memories of pain and pleasure in a collective consciousness. As all bliss, peace and happiness is inside you so are there total pain, suffering and darkness too. Light and darkness play their games until duality is witnessed. Passion of Christ is acceptance of all that is–when you look at your neighbor with compassionate awareness and wish them well your presence heals them but the very same event tests nitty gritty of your presence. Memories of fear, desire, pain and suffering severe your ties with body and if you accept them they evaporate very soon.

Fear of snake/time/nagas is fear of death. When you accept life the surrender happens on its own. Moderation makes your universe harmonious and leads to happiness and knowledge. Moderation gives you strength of character to bear totality of fear and suffering humanity has in your world which is but the desire to live. When you give up even desire to live you die while living and true awakening happens. Silence is all which remains. Hindu mythology represents Sheshnaga as the serpent with many hoods who protects the head of Narayana. The harmonious sage is also protected by the supramental life-force. The fear of external entities ceases when fear of death ceases. The fear of death ceases when there is no desire for bodily existence. When you realize that you were living a nightmare so far you wake up for never to sleep again.

Thus heaven and hell alternate here with difference in the thoughts. The imaginary realms are only to guide you. Heaven and hell are as real as thoughts. Negativity is hell and positivity is heaven. You are one reality which is the witness of both.


How your universe collapses and awareness emerges afresh?

Everything which was keeping you fast asleep starts helping you wake up when it’s about time. If you like reading fiction or watching films it will also help you wake up as much as meditation, religion or anything else will. There is no cause for awakening or sleep. When it’s beginning of awakening you see intense suffering and effort on your part which is mostly for your ripening. When you have no desires anymore–only a great longing for peace or truth you realize your Self. Then meditation becomes spontaneous and you realize that you never did anything because yours was no effort at all–it was as if a superpower was working inside your heart all along–which was your true nature. This knowledge takes some time to get well integrated into your system. Beginning of awakening, middle and end are all contained in this moment in NOW–in the ever present. That which appears to happen doesn’t have an existence–that which is true foundation of each event never appears, can’t experienced, can’t be pointed to and can’t be expressed in words albeit by denial of all perceived and imagined.  Continue reading “How your universe collapses and awareness emerges afresh?”

Play of Three Modes of Energy!

Desires fulfilled breed more desires. There’s a story of a monster called Raktabeeja–in a divine war this monster was almost unconquerable. The moment someone spilled its blood it used to recreate a thousand more similar to the original. Then the great illusory potency Mahamaya of God created a form Kaali which is the fierce demoniacal form of mother goddess. This destructive form is also known as Nritti. Nritti slayed the demon of desires and yet its anger is so fierce that entire universe was being destroyed–then Shiva comes to the rescue of the world and lies down in the battle field. The mother steps on Shiva but realizing him to be her master sticks her tongue out.    Continue reading “Play of Three Modes of Energy!”

Sahaja Samadhi And Burning Of Karma!

The natural state burns away all Karma. Nirvikalpa Samadhi also burns Karma but unless you reach Sahaja–the spontaneous and easy living in day to day life–living without desires and fear–you can’t burn away all reactions. You come out of all exalted states which aren’t Sahaja and then everyday worries and fears catch hold of you. When the natural state dawns–the deletion of reactions becomes rapid and ultimately immediate in such a way that everyday life sinks below consciousness–i. e. you don’t get too concerned with mind stuff–in fact it becomes mostly difficult to bring about thoughts but all situations which need response are dealt with intelligence. Since reactions are created in being active before awakening–non-doing is needed for gaining renegade state–thereafter non doing becomes spontaneous and no matter what you do you do nothing and nothing ever goes WRONG!

Liberation is freedom from wrong ideas about oneself–because world is merely a reflection of it. When there is no fear or desire left and you consider yourself the world–you are accepted and you accept everything–flowing with life at ease. Easy is right and right is spontaneous. The noble virtue of non-doing burns away all reactions giving the ability to meet situations head-on.

Why Did Mahabharata War Happen?

The other day, a friend had read about the cause of Mahabharata war and he shared it with me and wanted to know about my view.

Pandavas were five brothers who were righteous and had a common beautiful wife named Draupadi. Duryodhana was eldest among the Kaurava cousins who used trickery and deceit to get what belonged to Pandavas and also humiliated Draupadi because of a deep grudge. The story briefly goes like this: though Kauravas were jealous of Pandavas since very beginning, they became even more inimical after Draupadi humiliated Duryodhana before many people. A special palace was created by the chief artisan of demigods Vishwakarma for Pandavas. It had floors which shined like water bodies and water bodies inside it seemed like plane surfaces. This caused Duryodhana’s fall who was unaware of the design. Draupadi took advantage of the opportunity and mocked Duryodhana and his parents together. Dhritarashtra was blind by birth and his wife had taken a vow to not use her sight after marriage, thus both parents of Duryodhana were practically blind but since they were king and queen they sailed through. Draupadi had previous grudges against Duryodhana and his brothers and she used the opportunity to mock and taunt him.

This, according to my friend caused the epic war of Mahabharata.  Continue reading “Why Did Mahabharata War Happen?”

Maya: Buffer, Shocker and Self!

In the eleventh canto of Srimad Bhagvatam, Lord Krishna tells his friend and disciple Uddhava about the true nature of bondage and liberation. He tells that there is one Self alone and it’s because of difference among various mental tendencies –we observe so many beings. There exists neither bondage nor liberation. The imagination of bondage as well as liberation is because of Maya(Kundalini). Avidya(illusory potency) and Vidya(liberating potency) are both forms of Kundalini or Shakti.

Until there’s lack of ripeness the Self considers itself to be a limited being. The force which ensures this sleep is called Avidya. The prefix ‘A’ before Vidya suggests that the word is exactly opposite of Vidya. Vidya is the knowledge or force which liberates one from suffering, hence Avidya is the false knowledge which keeps one in bondage.


The humor lies in realizing that both Vidya and Avidya are AVIDYA because they’re parts of the dream. After awakening there is neither bondage nor liberation. They’re like dreams seen last night. It doesn’t matter whether you were running after materialistic pursuits or after some very peaceful heavenly state in your dream. Once dream is over you know that it never was reality. All the attempts to wake-up were in the dream therefore they were also as illusory as the things which kept you sleeping. It might seem paradoxical–because we think our attempts to wake up were really necessary to wake up. Actually we are always awakened–completely enlightened. The belief that we are not is what leads us towards spiritual pursuits and austerity. The tapas merely burns away the notion that we are bound. How dramatic that Vidya which is also AVIDYA has to first come in to make you believe that you are in bondage. Before Vidya comes into play you firmly believe that you need various forms to be at peace. You don’t even imagine that unity exists. But once Vidya starts functioning you start imagining a state which is free from duality and struggle of running after pleasure. Then it makes you so sensitive that you shun all material pleasures as false. Vidya burns away the notion of any separation from peace. Only after realization you firmly get established into the eternal state. It’s your ever present peace behind all movements. Vidya turns extraverted mind inwards. As it becomes introverted and one pointed the stillness increases and gradually becomes firmly established. Continue reading “Maya: Buffer, Shocker and Self!”

Why did lord Rama shoot a deer during his stay in forest?

“Why did lord Rama shoot a deer during his stay in forests? Was he a non-vegetarian? I hate non-vegetarians.”

Yesterday, a kid asked me this. I answered “I don’t know.” I have translated the question into English from Hindi.

The conversation ended there. The reason why such a question was put before me is because some kids consider me knowledgeable. I certainly don’t consider myself capable of answering each and every question. I feel it’s better to pass over those you don’t know or don’t want to belabor with rather than trying half-heartedly. The question was asked online therefore there wasn’t enough time to answer it properly. I also doubted if the questioner would understand me and hence I decided to remain silent.

Now, as I have some time to kill I have decided to elaborate on it. Continue reading “Why did lord Rama shoot a deer during his stay in forest?”