The Story of The Last Awakening-One!

I thank Kuan Yin, Saint Rajinder Singh Ji, Nisargadatta Maharaj, Master Padmasambhava, Jesus, Buddha and all spiritual friends for making me able to remember and empowering me to write down for healing of all. I hope this inspires you on your awakening journey. Thank you!

Thank you friends and readers: I would no longer post on this site so this is the last series of posts here. I would continue to post at new site The Art of Dying. 

When I met this beautiful soul in 2005 in college I had merely heard about the term ‘consciousness expansion’ and I was going through the first Dark Night of Soul which was truly dark and intense and my loving relationship with parents had dissolved in a blow of awakening. I lost faith in all relations and used to scribble all my thoughts and feelings for many hours everyday to heal myself and to increase my intelligence. This beautiful soul had many spiritual books and seemed to have all the answers for my spiritual questions. As I sat with him in his room and kept smiling at his wisdom and intelligence–the joy of having met someone who was truly beautiful flooded my soul. I asked him what he thought about me and he told he hadn’t seen such intense desire to wake up in anyone before. He told me that when he saw me first time in college notions like ‘a soul in sorrow’ and ‘an escapist’ came to his mind. He belonged to an exalted spiritual lineage which I immediately appreciated and yet he had also seen bouts of poverty before becoming stabilized. At that time he was going through healing as he had felt deserted in a romantic relation–he used to see flames in air. He was very sentimental and misunderstood me because of intense velocity with which his bandwidth was open. I saw book ‘Power of Now’ in his collection and asked to borrow and he gladly gave me the book. Before this book ‘The Einstein Factor’ proved to be pivotal in my awakening–I had bought it when I went to take an exam in 2002 in Bhopal–which was a big city–the book just attracted to me an d promised increase in intelligence. Since I had spent a lot of money on it my father rebuked me at home and I had to cry. This was a major theme. I had to cry a lot for reading Osho’s books which my parents were going to burn and which awakened me to futility of relations I had. All the books which made me cry awakened me. Continue reading “The Story of The Last Awakening-One!”

Pitch Darkness, Translucency and Light!

Many years ago when I was in college listening to logos or holy spirit inside my body with complete concentration and sometimes witnessing it resulted in deep ecstatic bliss. It was like complete unraveling of heart center at that time. Everything seemed beautiful and there was no time. I used to tune to inner word with determination for three hours and for the rest of the time I used to witness all that was going on in my mind and around me moment-to-moment. That period of six months was so beautiful that it created no Karma and burnt a lot of what was previously there but clearly tenth gate the eye center wasn’t clearly open yet so once again I entered into third dimensional concerns of job, friends, romance and so on. I gave the practice up though witnessing kept happening as I used to intensely focus on I AM as suggested by Nisargadatta Maharaj. I developed deep love for all beings and heart kept flowering with impediments being presented to me in outer. It was a defining period because I had myriads of deja-vus at that time which meant it was a defining time because inside you the source has essence of all experiences and if you deeply get in touch with soul you will get many deja-vus and visions. Continue reading “Pitch Darkness, Translucency and Light!”

Magic Inside Family!

The fifth dimensional awareness struck me like a thunderbolt all of a sudden and more so because of my recklessness, blind trusting, vulnerability and above all because of the way awakening happens for you at every stage especially if you are not under the tutelage of a live master or don’t belong to a group which practices spiritual discipline. Let it be made clear that physically I am still under the roof where it all transpired but as moment-to-moment infinite portals, dimensions and relative realities are intermingling it is evident to realize that it’s a new world and new home. I am still living with same parents and siblings as far as identities are concerned and I do hope to be on my own when things inside me and outside me settle a bit.  Continue reading “Magic Inside Family!”

Psychonaut in a Public Mystery school

I watched a Youtube video which suggested that Greek mythology called earth Gaia–a living organism. The idea that entire existence including all matter is living consciousness is very near to reality. I found resonance with the idea that earth is actually a vessel of light ascending into the fifth dimension from the viewpoint of all of us who are ascending from third-fourth to the fifth dimension. Treating Gaia as a living spaceship makes us both astronauts and psychonauts. The latter term has been taken from The Tibetan Book of The Dead. I perceived Gaia’s space curvature first in 2012 when under the influence of a substance. It clearly seemed I was in the space on a curved earth. Now as 2016 and dark night of soul started I constantly found solace in the idea of being on a spaceship or in a lab which was a simulation of my previous environments. The idea indeed came from Science-fiction films I had watched before still its resonance was strikingly brilliant and comforting now. People around me, my family members, neighbors, animals, birds and even remote ambulances seemed simulated. They all had an air of unreality about them and they were all extremely fluid and deeply associated with my feelings, thoughts and perceptions.

There is no doubt having read about Vedanta and spirituality for long and having meditated I used to perceive that  my environment seemed beautiful, gleeful, dark or gloomy based on my feelings. But now every single reaction was reflected in the mirror of environment immediately in form of echoes by people, animals, vehicles and birds(even clouds, weather etc too) It went like this: if I had a negative self-talk immediately vehement noises supporting it will start echoing from surroundings. A mother might be shouting at her daughter for her negligence but it will seem that she is addressing me and it was apparently absorbed by me because I felt one with everything( I still do but having achieved a sort of mind-isolation I now practice things which feel positive instead of exposing myself freely to the environment(whims of my instincts))

Another example will be: someone shouting at a dog or cow. It always seemed that they were scolding me in some way. My mind became ultra sensitive and lost all distinctions of gender, form, personality or being. If someone exalted a god in worship I considered myself to be the one exalted but then negative instincts made me shudder at the idea of considering myself so and so. If someone killed a mosquito or cursed it I immediately used to take the curse and considered myself to be the mosquito.

I was not aware that I was moving into the fifth dimensional earth and nondualistic unaccustomed consciousness I had was tainted with remnant unconsciousness from third and fourth dimensions. Amidst all this noise remembering my spiritual friends or masters and being able to observe beauty, stillness and life filled me with a supreme bliss which I had never felt before. The depth of light which enters through the wounds is always super intense though quality is same. Light is your everyday feeling of being. It doesn’t change whether you sleep, dream, wake-up or move between dimensions and it’s eternal because you’re light. Rediscovering yourself means finding yourself again after having forgotten yourself by becoming associated with all objects of consciousness. Usually a third dimensional awareness associates itself with body-mind and its possessions based on fear but when you grow in consciousness and become more aware your horizon of witnessing extends–then every pain is your pain and every suffering is your suffering–you become totally responsible for entire universe(s). In such a situation it’s better to have a healthy body and mind which can control its projections. A weak and obtuse body and mind in the fifth dimension is very likely to feel alienated and repressed. Since now consciousness is one with everything and body-mind have still to undergo a purification process it’s bound to be a kind of torture for them because of shame, guilt and memories which aren’t actually your own.

Until I caught a corner here in this room I neither had ability to stay calm, nor could I reflect clearly back at what had happened in those few months which was so radically trans-formative.  Now I feel it might responsibility to take care of my body, mind and surroundings by being and becoming positive and calm. You may say that Thanatos ruled for a while and now Eros does. 

If you’ve courage to die you find life but being unable to leave body at will is a hindrance in my opinion. I never felt like learning art of leaving body at will and it seemed like a handicap in times of high energy crisis during dark night of soul. I had to take it all on my body. We shall talk about my tryst with evil spirits later.

The public school where I went to teach was a beautiful place which gave me some great lessons of Yoga and Zen. Since I was not able to retain memories for long I used to write down a few things( again Christopher Nolan’s Memento had such a great impact on my thinking in college days and now Interstellar gave me some great ideas about fifth dimension as I re watched it carefully) I wanted to teach because I wanted to feel public contact. I thought I had reached end of the knowledge and vacuum of void used to pull me in deeply. I had no urge of living left in me and I had witnessed many miracles to consider that I was on the right path and indeed something extraordinary had happened to me. Now having understood ‘natural state’ of being to be able to freely interact in society and yet maintain one’s calm state of equilibrium I wanted to experiment with Truth. I had always avoided people, gatherings, social ceremonies and such because they seemed to soak my energy since early childhood. Even as I grew up I preferred company of myself, a friend or two and if possible some young kids. Authority figures always repelled me and feminine always attracted me. Now it was time to face the music since I considered myself fully enlightened. I decided to do all those things which I avoided especially with  a focus upon helping people. It began on its own as some divine beings came using vehicles of my relatives. The excuse was the illness of a young girl and at that time I was convinced that whatever I said happened–I tried to heal her with loving care and it did happen. At the same time I was waiting for my ascension too. As I went to the hospital and saw so many suffering people I also observed love they and their relatives had for themselves and each other. I intended to heal all of them by power of will and witnessing and spoke to a lady.

I didn’t realize that this entire game was for my further awakening and purification because in the same night as I was on roof waiting for ascension with lord Krishna I found that my neighbor was entering some devices inside my body–that made me feel strange. Though I was in a deep trance and in acceptance of what was happening–the knives which entered in my spine and body seemed too painful; as if I was disowning my body and dying. Though I had realized there was no death for me–the pain was too much to bear. As I came down and witnessed purification I felt immense shock of unbearable proportions to my head and the same beings who were possessing those three bodies communicated to me using thought transference that I was nothing and that war between good and evil had to happen as I had read before in various conspiracy theories. This immense blow to my head was first of many-to-come in the near future and so intense that it made me feel darkness, depression and despair of whole humanity. I let death processes overtake me later on and realized how it might have felt when master Jesus gave himself for the sins of humanity. Surprisingly I didn’t die and found that beings using the bodies of my neighbor became time lords and stayed with me for a while guiding me a bit but mostly leaving me free to will and free to choose my own destiny. My realizations became even more deeper as miracles kept happening. 

The interval between my joining the public school to teach and the events above might be considered to be the time when I traversed through hellish and ghostly realms.I will jump to public school now as I have created a background about my intentions to join it. I wanted to pay my dues imagining by doing so I will get complete liberation as it will be fulfillment of my destiny. I had seen horrors of roaming into wilderness during the dark night of the soul and thought that now I could restart as a good member of society by teaching kids in a school. As I joined the school I felt very good. For first day it seemed I was an avatar as depicted in movie Avatar by David Cameron and in Hindu mythology. The consciousness was already so expanded that it seemed to be an upgraded version of the game where some points were to be earned by doing some good spontaneous deeds and some drama was ongoing. Little did I realize that game had depths beyond what I had imagined.

As days progressed I met beautiful people and introduced myself. I started saying yes to everything with a positive vibrancy and everything seemed like heaven. I even had delusion that school was solely created for teaching me some basics of new environment. This premise was based on assumption that everyone else was more evolved than I was and it was indeed the case if a fourth dimensional being was entering into a fifth dimensional school(but how would you know if nobody clearly answers about anything and everything is left on your understanding?) Being old school I deprived myself of basic respect and compromised at every step. I bowed down to every staff member, kid and family member. What did it do? In a few days the delusion that I was an avatara went away and another delusion came that I was not prepared enough to teach. The usual ‘it was all happening to me’ and ‘everything is interconnected’ kept happening without any break at school and at home(which was also school because I failed to understand when one school stopped and other began!) I was also supposed to prepare for competitive exam to secure a government job which was strictly against my understanding since i had realized that you really didn’t need to work to feed your body-mind if you were not ambitious. Energy balances everything out and your being what you are is a blessing to everyone if you die to your body, mind and universe. Still I accepted the challenge and struggled for many days.

After a few days as I started preparing for teaching kids I realized that spending time on reading books made me capable of having a better time in class but then new problem arose–it was of ‘discipline.’ I realized that I could neither shout at students nor beat them using hands or cane as other teachers did and somehow they all respected other teachers even if they were new. Why was it happening to me?

After a few days the noises became overwhelming and since I was bound by Karma vows I couldn’t just quit job. In all the jobs I did before i was never shown way out–some mental problem or problem with self-esteem made me leave jobs on my own and finally I decided to live like a self-styled monk who works only to enlighten himself and by his presence helps others. As noises kept increasing and all means failed I realized that they were all perfected beings–not just teachers but all students as well! A staff member gave me a shock by telling about a name which was related to my previous history of living like a monk who was carefree–it made me greatly anxious and all joy of being an avatara or even a respected citizen who wanted to earn his living went away in a flicker of a second. I somehow collected myself and started to witness play of my instincts depicted beautifully on screen of school in various colors by perfected masters who wanted to purge me and purify me. Was it a purgatory, a hell, a heaven, a Zen school –I don’t know because on different days it seemed different and weather also kept playing tricks showing my union with a twin flame or many. It was mostly shame and guilt which purged me because I was unable to fulfill things. All of those people–maybe 400 or more could read every thought of mine when I was among them. And everything I did at home or school was reflected immediately. There was no ‘privacy’ left whatsoever in any way. Students made noise in the class and every thought I had in mind made noise grow stronger. The staff members will come immediately and tell me to control it and if a negative reaction arose in my mind immediately either students will start quarreling with each other or a staff member will beat them. I was never harassed physically as my given identity was that of teacher–an adult of 31 years of age but mentally I felt like a new born whose birthday was celebrated everyday. Every kid was able to read my thoughts and seemed sharper than me–what was I doing there? What could I possibly teach them? They were teaching me. 

Then tests became even more stringent. i could tell nobody about my experiences even at home because nobody believed me for gave me feedback in the 3rd-4th dimensional language. I felt like a toiling alienated slave at home and like a laughable joker in school. I did appreciate nature, beauty, bliss and being more than ever before and deeper realization of all teachings of masters started happening to me. I had to keep my mind completely quiet to keep students and teachers at bay. Most of the times I was writing on board because that was the only thing which could keep my mind quiet. Students didn’t appreciate that but that at least kept me engaged and kept noises down. If I were to teach them verbally they would never listen and noises would draw another teacher or principal. Then subtle manipulation by various teachers started happening. You may call it fourth dimensional magic. They all were more advanced than me and a cabal of masters well organized. One teacher will criticize another and I was supposed to overlook it because I knew that participating in criticism will lead to negative evolution and repercussions and not participating will make me look like antagonistic to the one who was doing it. This was a problem I had been facing since third dimensional existence. My utter honesty and lack of diplomacy regarding these matters now became a matter of question of life and death. for example–my sibling took some money from me to buy a substance he is addicted to and I told about it in a friendly manner to my father. I thought I was living in the truth realm universe now and it was alright to do so–this created a great drama and it pulled me in so heavily that I had to cry and learn lesson of dumbfounded wisdom.

Then lessons about spaces began. I realized that spaces were illusory. Too many spirits lived in a small space and what I had previously considered names and spaces were no longer valid. All turns on road meant something and I entered into a different realm if I took a different turn based on whether it was timely, l;ate, with or without good intentions. Where was I? Was I living with family members? No. The illusion was long gone. I firmly used to tell myself that I am new every moment and the people I meet are holograms of identities I used to perceive as my family–that I was traversing through infinite multiverses every single day! Everyone did something which reminded me of all painful memories especially since I entered the void under the illusion of complete enlightenment. There was no escape. The school which was beautiful and showed some of the most magnificently magical themes became a nightmare where I could not even lift my neck up as all kids and teachers used me as a scapegoat and plaything. But it was all a lesson–karmic or otherwise. Absolutely there is no individual Karma because there are no individuals but the lesson was needed for my further entry into the void. Now as I look back I better appreciate Karma and meditation. Had I been chanting a simple mantra to keep myself one-pointed or had I been present totally without rushing for anything many nightmares could have been avoided but everything happened to prepare this vessel and for the best. There are infinite mysteries in the void–both dark and light and I encountered a few. The secret initiations and vase empowerment kept happening because here in the void you are own master and your past present and future is apparently and totally and without any doubts depends on your choices and alignment with the whole. These articles omit certain details which might make readers uncomfortable for their own good but they do paint a picture which heals the wisdom re collective personality borne out of love of absolute of these author  and I do believe they heal all of us and bring in more light. Thank you for being with me on this journey. Thank you.  

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Through Darkness Towards Light

These are extraordinary times. I never ever felt like it was truly radical a shift in my surroundings and environment before. Now there is an unmistakable shift happening into a more spiritual dimension which is full of love, light, peace, intelligence, beauty, compassion and understanding. Darkness is most grim before the dawn of bliss, therefore as old patterns are breaking away and things which no longer serve our greater good are melting away we are feeling up and down every day and every hour of the day. To be stable to practice what needs be practiced is wise and to understand that basics don’t change as far as spiritual values are concerned is wisdom. If you need more power, more love and more compassion ask your inner self and it will be given.

This is a time of awakening as well as integration. Awakening is limitless so you might want to inculcate certain behavior patterns which are in accordance with flow and which lead you towards highest love and intelligence. Integration means being a whole as your physical, mental and spiritual bodies are aligned well with your environment and with entirety of universe, multiverse, cosmos and absolute. Continue reading “Through Darkness Towards Light”

Mystery schools: Traversing through realms!

I pay homage to Kuan Yin, Padmasambhava, Nisargadatta, Ramana, St. Rajinder Singh Ji, Jesus, Yogananda,  Buddha and all my spiritual friends for having made me capable of recalling and writing down these. May these help all spiritual seekers and heal all beings!

I never systematically practiced Yoga unless you consider whole life a school of Yoga where my yearning to be liberated grew day by day. It was supposed to be gleaning wisdom from books, friends, videos, angels and life. I had read about mystery schools but never imagined participating in one until now. This story might take many posts and I am sharing with hope that it would help some of you, entertain you and might make you my friend on path of light if you feel it resonates with you in some senses. Continue reading “Mystery schools: Traversing through realms!”

Integrating yourself after awakening!

The knowledge which you share out of loving kindness stays with you as light even in the darkest of times. It becomes your guide. It becomes your crystalline spiritual intelligence–therefore, never feel shy of sharing out of love. Give your best out to all your friends–to all those who need it and it will come to you thousand-fold. Only intentions matter in this act of sharing–those who truly deserve light will be drawn to you and by sharing you will be drawn to them. As a great friend has said–the love is our food, guide, tracker and means of living in higher dimensions.

Evolution of soul can be considered a journey up the mountain in some ways. There are various steps where you rest for a while and look at the beautiful views, at valleys and at dark places you visited, but you can’t stop at any steps. Either you pick yourself up and walk hand-in-hand with your friends or you will be forced to wake up and then you will start climbing up–they’re both the same. Internalization of awakening means you realize that there is no separation and your friends, enemies, body-mind and infinite forms and possibilities exist inside great-mind–which is void and your very own true nature. Externalization of awakening means that your friends and guides come to help you in forms like yours and with more intelligence and light–you are grateful to them and compassionate for all those who might be in need of help like you were before. In case of externalization what my good friend said–white ray of becoming or Buddhist creation of Bodhichitta(compassionate wisdom)–making of logos in your self is in operation and in the internalization the black ray of ‘Being’ –the Dharmakaya of Buddha–the enlightenment as realization of true unity of it all is being worked out.

Stability and freedom are a must to realize yourself deeply and you must strive for them at every step of evolution. As you go up you find that certain limitations no longer exist yet thee will be new limitations and you need to work on removing those limitations. These need not be external. You must realize that what you see outside is merely a reflection of what is inside–so when you have a clean heart you will only see love, beauty, compassion and light all around you. You will see immense intelligence and there is no limit to light. There is no limit to love and intelligence–they’re growing infinitely.

Good inspiring books, friends, things which really helped you in past(wisdom recollections) are considered your spiritual genes and they’re not to be shunned in new dimensions. You will realize that no memories stay and emptiness is what you merely read or heard about before but is a fact in your day-to-day life. This is where you need to crystallize spiritual intelligence by reading good books and convincing yourself that all light is within you. You are not alone because all your spiritual friends are with you–at every step. Remembering your masters, guides, loved ones and friends helps you sail through states where light is very low and shimmering only at banks. Enlightened masters like Buddha, Nisargadatta, Rumi, Kabir, Nanak, Jesus, Mother Mary, Elecktra, Vajrayogini, Tara, Padmasambhava, Shri Ram Sharma, Eckhart Tolle, J. Krishnamurti, Kuan Yin, Ramana Maharshi are in the ocean of being and immediately bridge you with eternal when you remember them. This faith is faith for your highest self  and devotion is to purify your intellectual and emotional obscurations to have courage to look at your deepest fears, anxieties and desires. 

After a certain time, it becomes your conviction that death doesn’t exist in the way you thought it does. It’s merely fear which can be called death. Death is fear of being alone, fear of losing knowledge, friends, comfort and harmony. Death is fear of moving into the unknown. Death is fear of being hurt again and again by poverty, criticism, alienation and desires. Death is being unable to rest and being unable to sleep. Death is clinging to certain forms or being attached to certain ways of living. Death is not being able to let-go and not being able to trust anybody. When you realize very clearly that your life, death and rebirth are continuum of memories and there is no hard center in you which lives or dies–you’re unafraid of death. When you traverse through the valley of death–you are merely traversing through your dark memories and those dark memories are not just yours–they come from common collective pool of consciousness. You are healing yourself and healing others by witnessing those memories. You’re bearing pain of others and by attending that pain you release light to life. Life is never as fresh as after death. Without death life is stale and stagnant. The death happens every moment for the ego–because it’s ever recreated but for the real–there is no death because it was not created–it’s eternal. Realizing this means realizing eternal life in which there is infinite beauty, infinite joy and boundless freedom to create.

Reality is something which can’t be expressed in words. Apparently we can’t express even our simple feelings of beatitude. love and joy in words–then how could we express what is infinitely more than all of these! Reality is neither one, nor many, it’s a mystery of mysteries as far as becoming and exploring aspects of yourself is concerned. But it’s your everyday existence–the very feeling of “I AM” as far as Being is concerned. You’re reading these words and you are. This is a fact. This is Peace. This is Being. Abide in this. Evolutionary momentum is needed so that you could abide in this with all others and there is no suffering for yourself or others.

A technique to employ to gain evolutionary momentum is to bring timelessness to all your interactions no matter where and when. If you’re reading something–realize that it’s happening ‘now’. In the sense that writer is actually writing it as you are reading it! The book might have been written a thousand years ago–your higher self is present beyond time–so in a way you’re talking to yourself. Imagine the writer talking to you directly and boundaries of time and space dissolving. This will take you into the timelessness. Similarly when you watch a movie–intensely realize that it’s happening right now–that in another multiverse this story is being created. The actors, musicians and directors are all your higher self and you can talk to them–live. No matter how old that movie or TV show is–you can make it live provided you’re intensely focussed in the “I AM” presence and with loving kindness you meditate on dissolving time and space boundaries. Fifth dimensional beings look at future as mountains and past as valleys–similarly you can look at past, present and future being one unified field of frozen events to be activated by your awareness. By doing this practice you will awaken your higher aspects of self.

There are infinite aspects of self and infinite dimensions. They’re all interconnected. Humility, kindness and love for yourself are a must to travel through light and at every level you will find that your surroundings remain more or less unchanged as far as forms go. It’s because there truly are no others. You’re attached to body-minds and certain habits and this makes you believe that others are body minds too. As you raise your vibrations you rise up and find that your family and friends are already there. Actually you are already your highest self but you need to rediscover it! You will find infinite creativity, miracles, light and love along the way. All your desires will get fulfilled and some new ones will be created in you because you’re a co-creator in a reality which consists all. The new desires are for becoming free from all desires. Olden desires were because of limitations. The realization that you really need nothing will always be with you provided you are stable, kind and compassionate to yourself and others. To recollect wisdom you need energy and memory which comes from logos or holy spirit–that’s why you should keep doing what is good and meditate with earnestness. There is no need to immediately demand destruction of body or environment as you realize yourself–you need to grow in wisdom and light by being aware to pain and blockages in your subtle bodies and have patience to love yourself. By loving yourself as you are you love all and by loving your friends you love yourself. When there is no duality–becoming and being are same–so love of yourself is love of all and only creativity and intelligence shines through.

The Scientist

1. The time and space don’t exist for you because you are absolute. You are time and space and yet beyond it.2. There are infinite parallel universes overlapping on the surface of consciousness. You don’t inhabit a universe but multiverses even as a personality. Events which happen are out there and their perceiver arises only in perceiving. There is no perceiver independent from perception. Only life exists which is sum of infinite events. Death, life and rebirth are one. All events are on screen projected by your light and exist only for a split second so all beings from smallest to biggest are merely shadows.   3. You’re absolutely free as everyone else. Elements act on elements in nature. Nature, mind, consciousness are all names for active Self. You’re that Self and yet beyond all this free from contents of all types. 4. You’re never bound–even when you imagine you’re–neither you’re free–nature and universe is conglomeration of opposites and their harmony. 5. You’re infinitude of infinites NOW. There is no perfection in future–you merely assume a goal and start chasing it. This is nature’s doing. 6. Bondage, yearning, desire, evil and good all exist in nature–in universal mind and differ from situation to situation—there is no good, bad or ugly in absolute. 7. All that you ever wanted to be you already are. Identification with personality makes you believe that you are merely a personality, an identity which is to be protected from things and forces external to it–the Truth is–you’re the only reality there is–hence past, present and future–including all identities exist in you and you’re in all identities. 8. Anything you ever imagined is possible—anything you will ever imagine is possible–is already happening in another universe and all infinite universe draw their being from you. 9. Every element discovered by you is as perfect as you’re–no higher or lower existence as far as reality is concerned—every situation is a dream witnessed by a prime mover who witnesses infinite universes moving through  surface of consciousness. 10. Reality is not the reward of being eligible, fit or training—you’re always reality because reality alone is–which is both indescribable and indefinable–being beyond imagination, words and understanding. All that you understand is a pointer to your very own Self. There is no higher or lower self. 11. For waking state merely brings similar patterns as dream state–there is no difference between waking or dreaming. Sleeping is same as awakening and you are beyond all states because all states are made possible by you. You’re the proof of all isms, ideologies, sciences, knowledge and beings. Nothing could prove your being and be independent of you as well.


Absolute is neither conscious nor unconscious because it’s beyond consciousness. It’s homogeneous, continuous and without any gaps or divisions of any kind. Words don’t reach it neither imagination does. It’s consciousness in which imagination creates various names and universes. Time and space are both creators and destroyers of perception and perception is creator of both time and space though perception can’t destroy time and space.

From the viewpoint of consciousness variations and discontinuity can’t exist without time and space. Time is change and change is time. Time’s passage is not independent of thoughts and thoughts aren’t independent of time. Time and thoughts come into existence together and disappear together. There is no possibility of infinite pleasure because consciousness is consciousness of change. Time doesn’t allow infinite pleasure or pain. Consciousness is also impermanent because awareness is not describable–it’s not a concept. It’s dark and mysterious as far as consciousness trapped in mind forms is concerned but Truth is that it alone is and thought forms don’t exist. That which has a beginning has an end and is therefore hollow.

Lila: The Play of the Absolute

Question: You say that considering myself to be a body-mind is root cause of all errors. But I see so many Jeevas taking birth in my world, surely it cannot be an accident, an error in the judgement by supreme Self?

Answer: There are two things to be sorted out clearly here. The first is–yes, there cannot be any error or accident as far as the Supreme or Absolute is concerned. I enter into the embodied existence in order to face opposite. The real, the self faces its opposite, which is embodied existence and the universe. Whenever there is a birth a universe appears. The moment sense of ‘I am’ comes into the existence at the time of birth, a universe comes into existence. The sense of ‘I am’ lies dormant in a newborn for a few years but it’s there right from the moment of his birth. The universe and mind body come into existence together.

Now you might think like this–there are so many jeevas in the universe–why do I want to constantly face the opposites only to wake again from this horrible nightmare. The answer is simple: There are no other embodied existences-but only one–that’s you feeling yourself to be inside a body-mind which is inside a universe. The moment you become liberated your universe dissolves. Multiplicity is an illusion. It’s very easy to understand if you talk about facts and leave fancies aside. 

Now-why must Self face the opposites to know itself? In the great silence of Self everything is contained–knowing and not-knowing, albeit in a potential form. It’s not a necessity but rather a play Lila which  gives rise to innumerable universes. It’s a play beyond descriptions because entertainment or boredom etc. don’t apply to a state beyond mind. Causation is possible only inside universe made by mind. Outside the universe causation is inapplicable like Time and Space. The play is uncaused. 

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